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Old Body

by Matthias van Beek

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1.
On the Map 02:59
No need to be ashamed that you are new to this. You’re just a common man, I will lead you through this. If you let me be your guide, cause I built this during times that you where counting bricks at night. I’m here, I’m here, I’m here, I’m here. If you wait you will never gonna be the one that will be the last standing. Though you say you really understand, I doubt If you really want to see that you’re never ever gonna be involved to write a happy ending. Though you say you really understand, I doubt If you really want to see. I doubt If you really want to see. I’m here, I’m here, I’m here, I’m here, I’m here, I’m here...
2.
A few thought he looked normal, but most of them complained. Mother didn’t see, love made her blind. She noticed something but she clearly didn’t mind. Well their kid looked rather strange. His head was purple and looked rearranged. Doctor said, it’s not that bad. He had a hard time to breathe and so he has a little error in his head. Hey mama… Hey mama, they try to tell me that I do all wrong but It’s just hard to come along. Around the age of eight he felt the need to separate, himself from all the other kids at school. 'Cause he got really tired to be called a fool. His older sister read this thing, about some kids with a funny little name. Recognize something in this? Do you think I will ever admit that I see resemblance? Hey mama… Hey mama, I know that you just tried to help but now I’m just too much aware of myself. A few think he is normal, but most think he is weird. Mom is the only one who really knows, the thing he really needs is to be left alone...
3.
'Till now I never knew, he never talked about. And though I really doubt he lost his memory, there may be a chance that he just phased it out. He phased it out... Now I still don’t know how my story ends. Well I can only accept, the last page went blank that I still didn’t read. But I doubt if I want to deal with it. Now I’m the one who saves me now, from those days. My face has suddenly changed somehow, but in a good way. The one who has ever said something about it, is now on his death bed. It may be a hoax for the time being. Am I statisfied with a rumour out of the blue? I do pretty good for what I went through. Now I’m the one who saves me now, from those days. My face has suddenly changed somehow, but in a good way. Cope with the lie indeed. Cope with the lie of my bloodline. Cope with the lie for my darlings. Cope with the lie for my wife. Cope with the lie to breed. Cope with the lie to find. That all of my life isn’t real. Till now I never knew, he never talked about. And though I really doubt he lost his memory, there may be a chance that he just phased it out. He phased it out... I'll lead you the way, I'll lead you the way…
4.
So I’m wrong, you tell me for how long. I have heard your lines for a hundred times. Better take back those ugly things you’ve said, 'cause I don’t really think that you've meant it. A loud mouth, try to whisper but you shout. Still surprised when they turnaround. Sometimes you can make them really mad though I know that you don’t really mean it. You can have some but one at a time. I will let you know when I’ll find some. Then you can have what’s leftover of mine, 'cause I don’t think I really mind. Summerset breeze it took too long to please, yourself or anyone else. A big mistake, you tought that they would take all your pretty lies for some good advice. Cheek to cheek, dirty black broken teeth. Turn a blind eye, Mr Wise Guy. All day long, you tell them they do wrong, but they have heard your lines a thousand times. You can have some but one at a time. I will let you know when I’ll find some. Then you can have what’s leftover of mine, 'cause I don’t think I really mind. You never said I was walking the wrong way. Why have you never told me, that I was walking the wrong way? Why have you never told me?
5.
You are not involved in all of this. I like to pretend... They say you don’t really exist, you’re my imaginary friend... 'Till you have some faith in me... We’ll get lost, drink 'till we can’t stand on our feet... Then we’ll guide one another out of their world... Please don’t be the one and only I need when I will find out you’re not real...
6.
Sport A Halo 03:22
I washed you out of my head, to crawl from under this stone. Whatever’s been told, from now on I walk alone. On self-made double sized beds, you taught me how to crawl around your body and breasts. I will treasure that, but hello? Can’t you see I sport a Halo? Now I am inside your brain. I washed you out of my head, 'cause I am willing to give. So easily ashamed, so goddamn sensitive. We’ve tried to cure It with tears, now I heal with pain. But since I have been prepared, I can see clearly that our shadows will chase themselves there where the wind blows. Try to erase memories...

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released January 16, 2013

Music and lyrics written by Matthias van Beek. Recorded, mixed and mastered by Matthias van Beek in Amsterdam 2012/2013.

Design by Thomas & Matthias van Beek. Photography by Conny van Beek & Thomas van Beek.

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Matthias van Beek Amsterdam, Netherlands

Born May 3th, 1984. Matthias started recording his own songs in 2003 on his Tascam 424 MKIII. He graduated at the Conservatory of Amsterdam in 2010. He's also the lead vocalist in the alternative rock band 'Tales That Are Not Supposed To Be Heard By People' ... more

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